First off, I apologize. It's been a long time since I've written a true post. I've wanted to, but other things take priority. And, really, who wants to hear what I have to say. Especially in the middle of the night.
I've been working on my Etsy site, posting new items, doing a little surfing, and thinking, and reading.
I hit "play" on the laptop of Bon Iver's cover of Bonnie Raitt's "I can't make you love me" - and it just breaks my heart. There's just something so beautiful in the sound of his voice. So unexpected.
I had heard of Bon Iver, but never really gave them an honest listen. This cover got me to sit up and pay attention. Check out the video on youtube. I dare you not to be moved.
What better time to cry than in the middle of the night? It's quiet. Who are you going to talk to? Just hit repeat on the one track that lets the tears flow right now and get on with it.
Why am I sad? Everything. Nothing. This and that.
I miss my mother. Some days I get wrapped up in fear and anxiety.
Some days I can't remember what I forgot to remember to forget.
Some days the hormones win.
What I do know is that I'm probably not really alone. Somewhere out there, in the dark of night, down the block, or half the world away, someone else is hitting repeat on "I can't make you love me", and they are letting the tears fall.
Things are often clearer after the rain...